7am time for bed after a long night at work

bah i feel so laazzzyyyyy :P want to get in my pjs and watch a nice disney movie… but which one is the question? possibly Aladdin?

Well, if only i could explain it all in words. If only things would all work out for a change. If only, life were easy. But it’s not easy. There are things no one wants to deal with, but at some point or another we all have to deal with them. I guess i don’t really know what in trying to say. I guess I’m sorry. If only we could talk. If only i meant everything i said. If only i could stop lying to myself and everyone else around me. I’m sorry i dragged everyone into my messed up life. I’m sorry i don’t know how to fix it. I guess if only sorry was enough. But it will never be enough. I will never be enough. I will never be good enough or live up to any ones expectations. Maybe i want to be a nobody. Then maybe this fucked up world would leave me alone. If only i wasn’t “so important” to people. If only nobody cared. Maybe no one cares anyway. If only that was true, life would be so much more simple and less complicated. If only i could slip away…. The only regrets i have in life is that i set my own expectations of myself to high, and that i really believed i could achieve them. I guess i was stupid. ‘Cause now i know and realise i could never reach that high. I regret that I’m so stubborn. I regret being so confident. I regret being there for everyone else, their shoulder to cry on. I regret not doing what was best for me. And now i can’t take any of it back i just have to live with what i’ve done, and keep going the way i am, and hope i don’t disappoint to many people along the way. If Only….